I want to be more than what I am
Much more than a sucking little lamb
Fill my head with things unknown
Not into the fire to be thrown
Transform and change
Mind going deranged
Infuse me with the dark
Unto lies do not hark
Always hungry, always thirsting
Never filling, never busting
An appetite that can’t be quelled
A burning flame that never pales
Reflecting the world but the glass is cracking
Feeling incomplete, something is lacking
The world looks in seeing its own reflection
Everything’s normal until closer inspection
Pick up a hammer and shatter the glass
Crawl inside, wade through the past
Pick off the cobwebs and adjust your eyes
Look around, the exterior lies
The world is distorted, dark, and drear
With a touch of whimsey and morbid cheer
Things that are strange lie all around
Left is right, and up is down
Oddly alluring and wonderfully weird
Where normal is loathed and grotesque is revered
Beauty lies in all the wrong places
You’re a stranger here, recognizing no faces
A path appears, but should you follow?
A lump in your throat and its hard to swallow
Take a deep breath and gather your strength
The path stretches out for an unknown length
Deeper and deeper into the depths you dive
There’s no guarantee of coming out alive
The path grows darker with each step you take
Now you wonder if this was all a mistake
The path stretches onward yet, its to dark too see
The urge rises up and you begin to flee
Turning around you race toward the light
But its too late now, no matter how hard you fight
The path crumbles away and you fall into air
Screaming for help but there’s nobody there
Forever trapped inside my mind
You are now mine until the end of time
Into the darkness to find the light
Into myself to unleash the demon
Into the night to avoid the day
Into the nightmare to discover the dream
Into the mirror to slay the beast
Into the mind to quite the fears
Into the heart to purge the pain
Into my skin to live out my days
Into the past to bury the memory
Into the future to sew the seeds
Into the present to live in regret
Into eternity for nonexistence
I cried out and no one answered.
I sought yet never found.
I gave myself unto thee.
And was crushed upon the ground.
My dreams once were vivid.
My soul a ray of light.
Now I stand alone and lost.
Wondering blindly in the night.
I hold my hand outstretched.
Waiting for a reassuring touch.
Hope now is fading.
Why did I expect so much?
I close my eyes to rest.
Hoping for some peace at last.
My heart forever broken.
Dwelled too long in the past.
By Para Morbid 2011
(Originally posted on facebook and Hubpages.com)
Tired of living
Not ready to die
Stuck in a rut
In failure I lie
Disappointed in myself
Lost in nothing
Withering away
Waiting for something
Burning with desire
Lacking the will
Lost in dreams
Never getting my fill
Slipping away
Inside I crawl
Shutting down
Awaiting the fall
By Para Morbid 2013
A Look Inside 